right here regrettinq everythinq that ii have done ,
i'm sorry that ii am dumb .

LOls ,
should ii cry or laugh ?
ii think ii should do both ):
result is back
and ii should cry for my stupidity ?
(but ii didnt)
should ii laugh at least ii pass my overall ?
(at least ii did)
haiis ,
lemme tell you my pathetic scores ,
mathematics : 22/80
english paper 1:31/60
english paper 2: 42/50
chemistry:19/40
physic:14/40
biology:28/40
history:63/100
dnt:67/100

the rest still dunno yet ,
pathetic horh ?
but at least ii pass my overall barh ,
whyy ppl slack slack can pass why cant i ?
ii felt dumb ~
haiish guess that's me ,
iitold mum
and she only say
what else can ii do
continue goinq out wiid friiend
continue foolinq around ,
ii felt guilty
haiish ,
though my math wasnt the lowest ,
my physic was ,
haiish ,
hahas , think ii should just remain happy (:
and just work hard for EOY
ii shall start planninq it early ,
ii want more a's then this tyme derh ,
ii dunnwan anymore 1a
ii want at least 5a's nxt tyme ,
if not ii might as well bang wall die ,
LOls ,
i am stupid ii should say !
how lehh?
only have one conclusion barh
work hard for my EOY
or other cominq common test
ii wanna prove tuh ppl ii can do it
ii dunwan all the f9 in my report book
they look ugly
they look pathetic
and ii dun like !
LOls
EOY ,
must bless me ,
2 term seem lonq but fast ,
hahas so must start early
ii deprove then last tyme ,
if ii not wronq at least last year ii got at least 3-5 a's
this year ii only got 1
super pathetic
ii think ii am the last in the whole class lurh
haiish ,
or maybe the last in th whole level
ii think ii am definatelly sure
nobody have done badder then me ,
ii am the worse zzz,
ii am super pathetic in my study ,
from now on ii must set a rule ,
if ii learn a new topic
on that particular scoo day
ii will go home
and revise until ii remember it well
then ii can go out ,
but can ii do it ?
ii will tell you all nxt tyme hahas ,
now ii shall flood away the so call emo post
LOls ,
flood ~
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now you all cant see anythinq LOls
ii must work hard for my eoy !
or any other common test in the nxt two term !
ii must ii must and yes ii must !
ii wann many many a's
and not only one a's !
ii must try tuh listen in class ,
ii must talk less in class
ii must take notes in class ,
ii must pay my 100% attention in class
ii must not fool around in class
haiish !
work hard work hard !
LOls ,
ii dun wan tuh be so pathetic lurhh !
ii must work hard !

ii felt pathetic suddenly ,
when ii heard from teacher
ii am not doinq well ,
i felt pathetic ,
when ii cant cope well in my studies
i felt pathetic when
ii cant concentrate on my studies
i felt pathetic
when ii didnt wanna come home
cos beinq afraid of alone at home ,
i felt pathetic that
my hand cant stop touchinq th com
i felt pathetic wiid my life ,
ii dun think ii am gonna do my mye well,
ii think ii will just fail wiid
dropping colours.
when cant i be in sec one ?
when thinq seem tuh be much more easier
life seems tuh be much more carefree
bro when oversea and 2nd bro studyinq
mum and dad workinq
and ii am all left alone
ii dun like that feelinq ,
ii dun like being at home alone !
why even if ii am at home ,
ii cant concentrate in studyinq?
outside ii cant ,
scoo not that well ,
home sadly no ,
what type of person am i ?
why cant ii just study
or could ii put it that way
ii hope ii am a genius
so that ii dun touch the book
oso noe how tuh do ?
ii wanna study !
ii wanna concentrate ,
but ii really cant ,
ii am so not gonna do well for mye ,
durinq scoo math lesson ,
mr leong is teachinq
and ii am playing ,
talkinq, joking around and foolinq around!
Tan Chew Mei you think you genius uhh ?
dunnid study oso can pass uhh ?
dream on luh,
english ii hope ii am copinq fine ,
sci ,
durinq lesson,
ii dun bring textbook ,
ii dun bring my notebook
tuh take down notes
ii rely on my foolscap
and when ii studied
ii found i lose them all
aint i just so super super pathetic ,
my attitude is pathetic ,
my studies is pathetic ,
my concentration span is pathetic ,
why am ii not studyinq ?
why ?
ii am not even fit tuh be called a student !
ii always rely on my so called "luck"
thinkinq that it will certainly help me
pass all my exam and excel in studies.
after exam ppl went home and study ,
ppl wanted tuh study
and ii am like their opposition
ii wanna study but ii dunwanna go home
even if ii dun go home ii wont study ,
ii truly wanna study ,
why cant ii just work hard?
ii tried studyinq ,
ii ended up usinq com ,
msninq , watchinq tv ,
sleepinq , why do ii only get slpy durinq exam period?
why cant ii stay awake and wake hard?
ii dun wanna be liddat !
all ii want is tuh concentrate on my studies
get good grades ,
that ii can proudly go around
"ehh ii got 5-6 a"
ii dunwanna rely on my luck anymore
everytyme ii get a bad result
ii will be laughinq and jokinq wid my score
ii dun show any sadness or disappointment at all ,
ii guess this is how pathetic i am
ppl fail , they will take the failure and work hard
ii fail , ii could do nothinq
but pathetically laughinq at myself
jokinq at myself
ii just feel simply PATHETIC ):
this thing tie my chest real tight
ii guess if ii dun type out ii might just burst ,
ii feel bad ,
i dunno why ):

back tuh post active enuff yeahs?
today went out
wiid big bro and mum ,
big bro is leavinq soon
to america for 6 month
today was massive shoppinq !
ii am jealous of my big bro too
he bought a nokia n95 8gb !
siianess, hahas
then bought lots of thinq
he will be on ship ,
since th subject he study in poly was
marine engineerinq
he will be on board
as a trainee
hope everythinq go well for him
spent so much money within one day
bought bro's phone,
2 zinc bag one mine and one bro's
and lot of other things lurhh
but of cause not ii pay mum's payinq
bro actually want n81 cos he say cheaper
then mum told him want go onboard by a betta fone ,
then in th end bro buy n95,
hahas was 6oo+
bro actually dunwan ,
cos he not enuff money
but mum say return her
went he come back from sea
so he bought n95 ._.
then when zinc see bag ,
ii bought on bag ,
and bro brought somethinq like a sack derh
quite nice actually ,
then hand full liiaos
cos bro hrought
hangers,
shampoo,
soap,
toothpaste,
toothbrush,
singlets,
notebooks,
and many many more lurhh ,
haha then walk until leg very suan !
then finally took a bus home
so dam pathetic
so many thing on hand still take bus
but how lehh , over spent liiaos ,
ii think me mum and bro spent more then
9oo dollar today lurhh barh
siiao ryte
hahas
but was fun ,
ii very guaii alrights?
ii only brought one bag that cost around 38.90
ii think ,
very little contribution tuh th huge overspent
hahhas
and was happily chattinq wiid huijuan a moment ago ,
and super lame larh
here it goes

CHEWMEI ;D says:
break my heart
CHEWMEI ;D says:
*piang*
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
i never touch your heart, how to break your heart?
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
hahas
CHEWMEI ;D says:
*shatter into pieces and drop on th ground T.T*
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
*pick it up*
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
*glue it*
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
*put back into TCM body*
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
ok le
CHEWMEI ;D says:
oO
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
hahas..
CHEWMEI ;D says:
*th glue not steady enuff *
CHEWMEI ;D says:
*PIANG*
CHEWMEI ;D says:
*and shatter again*
CHEWMEI ;D says:
use tighter derh glue larh
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
*pick up*

CHEWMEI ;D says:
dun so budget lehh
CHEWMEI ;D says:
my heart lehh
CHEWMEI ;D says:
cannot play play derh
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
*take expensive de PURPLE glue*
*put back inti TCM body*
CHEWMEI ;D says:
*pianq*
CHEWMEI ;D says:
*the glue too expensive chewmei's heart cannnot take it *
*shatter on to th ground again*

*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
then you wan wad glue leh?
CHEWMEI ;D says:
until you find the suitable one
CHEWMEI ;D says:
if not sure piang again dehr
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
huijuan * take put her heart*
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
*out
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
*put into chewmei heart*
CHEWMEI ;D says:
oO
CHEWMEI ;D says:
*bom bom bom bom *
CHEWMEI ;D says:
*if started bumpinq*
CHEWMEI ;D says:
*and huijuan is dyinq T.T*
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
*weakly* i mdying.
CHEWMEI ;D says:
but ii am not gonna pity her
CHEWMEI ;D says:
*BYEBY*
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
*open chewmei body
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
take out the heart
CHEWMEI ;D says:
*leave her on th ground dyinq *
CHEWMEI ;D says:
* reject lettinq her open*
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
put into my body
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
bleahs.
CHEWMEI ;D says:
*push her away*

*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
i take a act cute child heart.
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
exhanged with chewmei
CHEWMEI ;D says:
*stab her and she fall on th ground dead*
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
but chewmei dun wan
CHEWMEI ;D says:
* chewmei dunwan *
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
then i throw the heart away

CHEWMEI ;D says:
*she dunwan that ac derh heart*
CHEWMEI ;D says:
* and ii went and buy a coffin for huijuan *
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
yupps
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
i dun wan that ac heart
*wwf ahhjuan - THE PURPLE LOVERS. ;P says:
hahas
CHEWMEI ;D says:
*thanks for stupidly givinq me you heart*

tadaaaa ~
is this lame and cold enuff
xD
ouhkayes lurhh shall end here !

HUIJUAN is my purpur lover(:

yo all preettay and handsome ,
here tuh post again ..
am tryinq tuh be a active blogger (:
manymany birthday wiithin this month and april (:
YUEXI 28.o4.o8
happy birthday ,
we spent the whole day plottinq against her
like ii bulliied her
ii scolded her
ii pangseh her
ii purposely suanned her
ii try hurtinq her
we trick her we didnt buy cake
and we have a super duper fun present forh her
and ii think it is more then 2o layer ?
hahas gliitter in it too
then after scoo we ran away
we pangseh her
then later baoru
brought her tuh th place we plotted ,
we had cake ,
smash cake
spray water
total mess and chaos
hahas

ROSALIND29.o4.o8
HAPPR BIRTHDAY !
will recieve your present soon ii think

FANGYUo1.o5.o8
blurrqueen ,
happy bday !
we bought your present
we really do hope you will like it (:
although it might not be very big
but we really hope you will like it !
we love you (:
ohhyarh the we refers tuh
me , yuexi,baoru and eliz(:

HUAYHOCKbloodbro o2.o5.o8
bro ,
ii didnt celebrate much wiid you
hahas
but ii am sure you had fun wiid your friiend
no present for you
as there is no tradition in this family
tuh give each other present
hahas
you promise tuh teach me math
on sunday !
rmb worh ,
hahas , hope this will save my pathetic math a lil '
after all happy bday !
sheng ri kual le !

hmm shall end here !
T.C.M