i just sort of feel out of place ,

i totally duntknow what i am doing -,-

totally shagg-ed out this 2 week ,

i duntknow what's troubling me ,

i feel troubled , but i sort of duntknow what i am troubled about .

i think i am mad

but somehow i think and feel like i am just a puppet , a toy , a lightbulb ,

i was somehow never appreciated no matter with which of my friend ,

i feel kinda extra ,

i feel like as though i am th thick skinned one who try to get attention by th hard way .
but not until th extend that i use extreme method to solve thing or get something ,

and i do not want this to freaking happen .

i duntwant to become a liar ,

i duntwant to become a pest ,

i duntwant to become such a attention seeking ppl ,

i hope i was more normal ,

i duntlike being a lightbulb between friend ,

and pls , dunt make me one .

sometimes seriously , i feel like a puppet , a toy

i duntknow what i am thinking lahs ,

but i am sort of troubled by this small little things ,

that doesnt sound great or whatsoever .

i wanna be back to normal ,

i duntwanna be like this , i will be th one suffering in th end ,

i duntwant , i am always treated like a substitute ,

a unwanted character among my friend ,

i look so thick skinn , and sounded so thick skinn ,

aiyaaaa , seriously i duntknow what i actually want, and what i am actually thinking of ,

i somehow only get this wakeup call in this few days .

i keep thinking about it ,

and i finally heard of somehow one explaination , that seriously woke me up ,

it goes like :

when a person so call keep wanting you to go out ,

and says things like without you it's not fun ,

it might not be true ,

cause ppl may just be saying it by not meaning it ,

in their mouth they say , i want you to come ,

in their heart , it will be best you dunt come , spoil my plan and so on ,

i feel like i am a extra and a thick skinned tag along , i duntknow lahs ...

i am seriously tired le , i just wanna type this out , and seriously stop brooding about it lahs ,

zzzzz.

-,-